Numb

I am numb.

I can't feel anything or rather I don't know what to feel, neither this nor that. My heart just can't decide on an emotion from the many that has been laid out in front of it, like a spread of cards. It's like I'm drifting in outer space without my five senses, can't make out where I am or how long I've been like this. Empty.

I need to feel something because this indescribable something is keeping me from moving on. That nagging feeling that there is something there but you don't know what. Or will it hit me later in waves? Will I find myself overwhelmed with emotions?

Or perhaps I am indifferent? But to be indifferent is terrifying because that would make me inhuman.